Heart release me...

"End the Pain."

blankly staring as my eyes leak
chin quivering, teeth chattering
i try to speak.
but no words come out,
sour adjectives pile inside my mouth
making thoughts hard to see.
as you stand idly by
always laughing at me
eyes burning deep with vengence,
but i know not what i did.
so heres another apology,
please end the pain.
i'm sorry for all i've done to you.
i'll try not to feel again.
and if forgiveness is what you give,
please rain it on my head.
cause the pain is so harsh you see,
and i'm praying to be dead.

long legs carry me to my dark place,
fear written on my face.
i clawed my way to this great point,
to run away again.
with face hidden deep in a hood,
my tears rain down my face.
another long apology
for all i've ever done.
i wasn't what you wanted.
but cry no tears,
please have some joy.
your freedom is held in hand,
i'm sorry for your bother.

so to borrow words from and idol.
from one of his songs,
filled with sorrow.
"you don't need to bother;
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on,
i won't let go till it bleeds"
so another long apology.
i'm sorry for being me.
thers nothing left to hide,
no feelings left inside.
so again to borrow some more words.
"i'm out this bitch,
theres nothing left for me here."
and i'm gone away.

well it's 820 in the morning on a monday. i have work at 4 and i woke up at 630 or something like that, but it's ok... i don't mind. life seems to be going ok for me. work is bullshit, but then again, thats why it's called work. SEAN GOT A JOB WITH ME, i think that's so awesome. i swill populate joey's with my friends, MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHa. the story, which has upsates on here, which i have to do again, is coming along. although i'm finding it hard to write at the moment. i miss you baby. other then that, i can't really think of anything to post on here... so i'm outs.

wait heres some lyrics for ya:

"nothings left" by the Insane Clown Posse

man... i love you guys
man shut the fuck up man. why you always gotta ruin the moment?
man fuck you.
AIN'T NUTTHING HERE LEFT FOR ME, SO I'M OUT THIS BITCH
FUCK STAYIN' HERE. I'M BUSTING THE FUCK OUT NOW
WE OUT THIS MUTHA FUCKA RIGHT NOW

theres no story that aint been told
theres no gimmick that ain't been sold
theres no ocen that never been swam
thats no jobber that aint been slammed
theres no road that aint been traveled
theres no doctor that aint been baffled
aint no thug that never cried
aint no preacher that never lied
thats no rumor that aint been passed
aint no question no ones asked
theres no tree that won't get chopped
theres no bomb that won't get dropped
aint no pth that no ones laid
aint no bead that aint been afraid
theres no feat that no one can
theres no saga that never began

aint no snow that didn't melt
theres no punch that aint been felt
theres no skill that no ones learned
theres no planet that he ain't turned
theres no view that never dissolved
theres no problem that aint been solved
theres no tale that no ones told
theres no beauty that won't get old
theres no garden the sun ain't beamed on
theres no shoulder that ain't been leaned on
theres no colour that ain't been seen
purple red yellow blue forest green
theres no desert that ain't seen rain
nobody here that ain't felt pain
there no bigot that aint been clowned
theres no treasure that ain't found
ain't no cave they never explored
ain't no mother that ain't been ignored
theres no leader that ain't been lead
theres no blood that ain't been shed
theres no dish they never made
ain't no brick they never laid
everything left's been done before
nothings new, nowhere to explore

on the day when the wagon's come i just pray you let me on {7x}
won't you let me on, won't you let me on, won't you let me on.....

hey jake jeckel fly twist and spin to the other side {9x}
on the day when the waggon's come i just pray that you let me on
won't you let me on, won't you let me on...

(written by shaggy 2 dope and violent j)