"The Masks Inside"
if we wasted our tears
on things that tear us down
would the breaking point be far off?
could we find our own ground?
no one knows who we are
not really anyway
we're just playing our designated part
in the thing we call life
this heart gets broken by another
then that heart gets broken by the pain
of being left alone again
if we let things get to our heads
depression will sink in
then death is the only thing seen
we're not strong
being made from flesh and bone
we can break
just like anything
we're not weak
being made of feelings
we can take some of the words
we can take the punishment
our tears will be the testiment to our will
to stand up and not be put in a hole
so dark we don't see the shadows
we'll fall down broken
our masks falling to the floor unseen
reavealing a torn heart
slowly bleeding itself out
we're not strong
being made from flesh and bone
we can break
just like anything
we're not weak
being made of feelings
we can take some words
we can take the punishments
if only for a little while longer
Andrew C.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Friday, February 9, 2007
new poem ya'll
"For You, No One Else"
one word from the whispers
one word carried on the wind
one word that creeps through your window
one wordthat i say again and again
one word closer to my heart then any other
one whisper away from it again
i breathe a breath
inhale to exhale
open my mouth and move my tongue
here it comes
one motion to capture
one motion to be remembered
one motion unlike all others
one motion for the lovers
one motion on the dance floor
one motion then one more
our feet glide
on the wind
on our pride
as i sweep you off your feet
with one word to come
love.
one thing unlike no other
one thing that can tear the tears out of your eyes
one thing that can make all others extinct
one thing that can be everything
one thing that was nothing
one thing that can make your day
i breathe a breath
inhale to exhale
open my mouth to say whats left
here it comes
one more day for ourselves
one more day to tear us down
one more day to build a new
one more day spent with you
one more day to break the skies
one more day to bury the lies
one more day like no other
why?
because we have each other
and nothing can take me away from your side
i'm always going to be beside you
love.
love me like no other
love me like i was you prince
you will be my princess
love me like i won't be here tomorrow
love me like i wasn't here yesterday
but always remember
i was there even if you never saw my face
even though you know
this is for you
love.
Andrew C.
one word from the whispers
one word carried on the wind
one word that creeps through your window
one wordthat i say again and again
one word closer to my heart then any other
one whisper away from it again
i breathe a breath
inhale to exhale
open my mouth and move my tongue
here it comes
one motion to capture
one motion to be remembered
one motion unlike all others
one motion for the lovers
one motion on the dance floor
one motion then one more
our feet glide
on the wind
on our pride
as i sweep you off your feet
with one word to come
love.
one thing unlike no other
one thing that can tear the tears out of your eyes
one thing that can make all others extinct
one thing that can be everything
one thing that was nothing
one thing that can make your day
i breathe a breath
inhale to exhale
open my mouth to say whats left
here it comes
one more day for ourselves
one more day to tear us down
one more day to build a new
one more day spent with you
one more day to break the skies
one more day to bury the lies
one more day like no other
why?
because we have each other
and nothing can take me away from your side
i'm always going to be beside you
love.
love me like no other
love me like i was you prince
you will be my princess
love me like i won't be here tomorrow
love me like i wasn't here yesterday
but always remember
i was there even if you never saw my face
even though you know
this is for you
love.
Andrew C.
Thursday, February 8, 2007
yea i stole this from my honey's blog
61 Odd Questions. (so not true)
1.) Do you talk in your sleep? used to
2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello? Blue
3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now? anything radio regergatated
4.) Favorite Food Group: Italian
5.) What's your favorite color(s)?Green now(thanks hun) baby (sky) blue and the wonderful SHADE of black
6.) Window seat or aisle seat? Don't really care as long as i can sleep
7.) Ever met anyone famous? nope. nor do i think i really wanna either stuck up bastards
8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?well i got the girl of my dreams so yea
9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? both
10.) Who do you like - Ricky Lake or Oprah Winfrey?HA what is this invention you call a TV anyway?
11.) Basketball or Football? sports are for jocks, i'm not a jock
12.) How long do your showers last?as long as they need to be
15.) Are you self-conscious? nope
16.) Have you ever given money to a bum? uh huh
17? -
18). Where do you wish you were?Nanimo with muh girl
19). Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? once or twice
20.) Can you tango? no, wish i could
21.) Last gift you received? christmas present
22.) Last sport you played? like i said, sports are for jocks
23.) Things you spend a lot of money on? what money?
O.o 24 and 25? -
26) Favorite FAST food restaurant? Panago (but i worked there for 3 years so i'm byas)
27) What food will you not eat? anything that looks gross
28) Can you sing? iono ask someone whos heard me
29? -
30) What's your least fav. chore? nothing as long as my house is clean
31. Favorite Drink? anything but water and booze
32) Are you a vegetarian? try to be
33) Do you believe in Heaven? theres something after this life, not sure what tho
34) Do you miss someone? Stephanie of course, i love you baby
35) Have you ever come close to dying? a few times yes
I'm gonna start making my own questions... -
37) Are you eating? do i ever?
38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? mhm
39) Do you wear makeup? i used to be goth... so yes.... *shy face*
40) Whats your worst fear? that steph will fall out of love with me
41) Would you ever have plastic surgery? nope this is what i got, this is what i'll use
42) What do you wear to bed? shorts or nothing
43) Are you wondering where the questions went? not really
44) Did you steal them? nope
45) What kind of shoes do you wear usually? black Airwalks with black and white laces
46) Do you want kids? sooner or later
47) Future child's name? Boys: Brody Girls: Adara, Destynie
48) Are you sure you didn't steal them? mhm. why would someone steal a question anyway?
49) I think you're lying. good for you
50) Do you snore? sometimes, usually only when i'm sick, like now
51) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? Ireland, Scotland, England
52) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? nope, i love my pillow tho
53) If you won the lottery, what would you do? pay for steph's school then save it
54) Gold or silver? silver
55) Hamburger or hot dog? neither
56) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be ? pizza
57) City, beach, country? country (preferably near a river)
58) What was the last thing you touched? T.P. to blow my nose
59) What did you eat last? noodles
60) When was the last time you cried? the last time i felt hopeless
61) Do you read blogs? the ones that count
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? comando man
2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? my girl, like she always is
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? sitting on the computer talking with steph
4. Honestly, what did you do today? woke up b4 noons, so thats an acheivement
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? others do, so maybe i am?
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? i had a smoke
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? again what is this T.V. thing you keep talking about?
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? all those that see steph everday and don't realize how important she is to me.... i wish i could see her everyday *cries*
9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? steph
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? nope
11. Honestly, what is your mood right now? tired and fed up
12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? no i just don't eat that much
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? Steph
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? don;t we all
16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? could
17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? steph
18. Honestly, are you loyal? always
19. Honestly, are you in denial? nope
20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? i'd rather just hold her for once actually
21. Honestly, who is your best friend? Sean R., Steph O., Trista K., Eric M., plus a few others
22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? i was conduming alcohol b4 i was born F.A.S.
23. Honestly, do you like someone? why would i wanna do that, lol
24. Honestly, does anyone like you? i should hope so
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? as far as it could go.
26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? mhm
1.) Do you talk in your sleep? used to
2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello? Blue
3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now? anything radio regergatated
4.) Favorite Food Group: Italian
5.) What's your favorite color(s)?Green now(thanks hun) baby (sky) blue and the wonderful SHADE of black
6.) Window seat or aisle seat? Don't really care as long as i can sleep
7.) Ever met anyone famous? nope. nor do i think i really wanna either stuck up bastards
8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?well i got the girl of my dreams so yea
9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? both
10.) Who do you like - Ricky Lake or Oprah Winfrey?HA what is this invention you call a TV anyway?
11.) Basketball or Football? sports are for jocks, i'm not a jock
12.) How long do your showers last?as long as they need to be
15.) Are you self-conscious? nope
16.) Have you ever given money to a bum? uh huh
17? -
18). Where do you wish you were?Nanimo with muh girl
19). Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? once or twice
20.) Can you tango? no, wish i could
21.) Last gift you received? christmas present
22.) Last sport you played? like i said, sports are for jocks
23.) Things you spend a lot of money on? what money?
O.o 24 and 25? -
26) Favorite FAST food restaurant? Panago (but i worked there for 3 years so i'm byas)
27) What food will you not eat? anything that looks gross
28) Can you sing? iono ask someone whos heard me
29? -
30) What's your least fav. chore? nothing as long as my house is clean
31. Favorite Drink? anything but water and booze
32) Are you a vegetarian? try to be
33) Do you believe in Heaven? theres something after this life, not sure what tho
34) Do you miss someone? Stephanie of course, i love you baby
35) Have you ever come close to dying? a few times yes
I'm gonna start making my own questions... -
37) Are you eating? do i ever?
38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? mhm
39) Do you wear makeup? i used to be goth... so yes.... *shy face*
40) Whats your worst fear? that steph will fall out of love with me
41) Would you ever have plastic surgery? nope this is what i got, this is what i'll use
42) What do you wear to bed? shorts or nothing
43) Are you wondering where the questions went? not really
44) Did you steal them? nope
45) What kind of shoes do you wear usually? black Airwalks with black and white laces
46) Do you want kids? sooner or later
47) Future child's name? Boys: Brody Girls: Adara, Destynie
48) Are you sure you didn't steal them? mhm. why would someone steal a question anyway?
49) I think you're lying. good for you
50) Do you snore? sometimes, usually only when i'm sick, like now
51) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? Ireland, Scotland, England
52) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? nope, i love my pillow tho
53) If you won the lottery, what would you do? pay for steph's school then save it
54) Gold or silver? silver
55) Hamburger or hot dog? neither
56) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be ? pizza
57) City, beach, country? country (preferably near a river)
58) What was the last thing you touched? T.P. to blow my nose
59) What did you eat last? noodles
60) When was the last time you cried? the last time i felt hopeless
61) Do you read blogs? the ones that count
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? comando man
2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? my girl, like she always is
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? sitting on the computer talking with steph
4. Honestly, what did you do today? woke up b4 noons, so thats an acheivement
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? others do, so maybe i am?
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? i had a smoke
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? again what is this T.V. thing you keep talking about?
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? all those that see steph everday and don't realize how important she is to me.... i wish i could see her everyday *cries*
9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? steph
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? nope
11. Honestly, what is your mood right now? tired and fed up
12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? no i just don't eat that much
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? Steph
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? don;t we all
16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? could
17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? steph
18. Honestly, are you loyal? always
19. Honestly, are you in denial? nope
20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? i'd rather just hold her for once actually
21. Honestly, who is your best friend? Sean R., Steph O., Trista K., Eric M., plus a few others
22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? i was conduming alcohol b4 i was born F.A.S.
23. Honestly, do you like someone? why would i wanna do that, lol
24. Honestly, does anyone like you? i should hope so
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? as far as it could go.
26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? mhm
well well well
has anyone ever had to play a game to find out when you could work?
well i have. i am now eligable to work here at the joey's only in campbell river now that i've completed a game sent to me by the manager. stupid i know but that seems to be the way that she has made it, now that i've completed the damn game I get to call her and ask for an orentation schedule, not the other way around like i normally is.
so now that i've done all this bullshit i can start to make some money. yay for me since we need the money, right honey. but still the fact that i had to do all this shit before i could work makes think that maybe it's not worth it. since the manager at joey's doesn't really seem to wanna take a HUMAN intrest in her new and up-and-coming employees then why should i try to make an interest in her damn store?
In other news. i'm about to give up in one of the best friendships i've always had. it gets tiring when you know that if you do anything to help someone and they keep putting themselves in the same shit making all the help you give them null and void. plus the fact that there is a child thrown into the mix doesn't help. now if you don;t really know me i've never known my dad (or father if you will) so when a father doesn;t take an active interest in his child i get a little choked up. but when that father also has to hit on and make the mother of his baby feel like shit then not pay any attention to his child as he's leaving the house all pissed off it REALLY gets me choked, but my friend keeps wanting to put herself in this position. so i've been thinking of the time when i can say. I DON'T CARE anymore, unitl you are smarter then you are now, until you get your head on straight, until you learn that he is not good for you or your child and that he must leave (for once i agree with my brother on something) then i don't care.
thats the news
well i have. i am now eligable to work here at the joey's only in campbell river now that i've completed a game sent to me by the manager. stupid i know but that seems to be the way that she has made it, now that i've completed the damn game I get to call her and ask for an orentation schedule, not the other way around like i normally is.
so now that i've done all this bullshit i can start to make some money. yay for me since we need the money, right honey. but still the fact that i had to do all this shit before i could work makes think that maybe it's not worth it. since the manager at joey's doesn't really seem to wanna take a HUMAN intrest in her new and up-and-coming employees then why should i try to make an interest in her damn store?
In other news. i'm about to give up in one of the best friendships i've always had. it gets tiring when you know that if you do anything to help someone and they keep putting themselves in the same shit making all the help you give them null and void. plus the fact that there is a child thrown into the mix doesn't help. now if you don;t really know me i've never known my dad (or father if you will) so when a father doesn;t take an active interest in his child i get a little choked up. but when that father also has to hit on and make the mother of his baby feel like shit then not pay any attention to his child as he's leaving the house all pissed off it REALLY gets me choked, but my friend keeps wanting to put herself in this position. so i've been thinking of the time when i can say. I DON'T CARE anymore, unitl you are smarter then you are now, until you get your head on straight, until you learn that he is not good for you or your child and that he must leave (for once i agree with my brother on something) then i don't care.
thats the news
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