"when you're gone" by the cranberries.

"When you're gone"

Hold onto love that is what i do now that i've found you.
And from above everything's stinking, they're not around you.

And in the night, I could be helpless
I could be lonely, Sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
There's nothing simple, when i'm not around you.

But i'll miss you when you're gone, that is what i do, hey, baby!
And it's going to carry on, that is what i do. hey, baby...

Hold onto my hands, i feel i'm sinking, sinking without you.
And to my mind, everythings stinking, stinking without you.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
theres nothing simple, when i'm not around you.

but i'll miss you when you're gone, that is what i do. hey, baby!
and it's going to carry on, that is what i do. Hey, baby...



first song i ever heard by them, and now that i have someone that the song reminds me of, i love it that much more.

A.

p.s. i would put the video on to, but i'm apparently not blogged up enough to know how... lol

numb

ok so last post you got the lyrics for my favorite song by I Mother Earth, you also got the video for it thanks to steph. love you baby. well this is the poem that was inspired by the song. NOTE: the poem contains some of the lyrics from the song.

"Numb"

I close my eyes to my everyday
As the sun comes crashing down.
And all I wish I had was...
A home.
But when it's all undone,
Could I have been the one
To trust myself with a knife
As I cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

Here lies the former
Her life is spent
She cried her heart out onto her sleeve
And I took it in my hand,
Gave it a squeeze
As I cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

I close my eyes to my everyday
Just as the moon drifts away
And all I wish I had was...
A friend
But when I lose the days
In moments when i'm gone
To trust another with a knife
I come crashing down.
I'm compleltly numb.

Here lies the changed
Crumpled on the floor in pain
Tears run down his face.
Cause he has been replaced.
And they took him in their hands
Cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

And i'm so unwound.
I know in my own way i'm breakin' down
Without screaming out loud
I'm facing up... and reaching out
In the end i'll come around
So shut your mouth!
Cause ii can't stand or yell out
I'm completly numb

But as I stand on the future
A chasm in which I can dive.
All I wish I had was...
Understanding
But when it's all but too late.
And other live are now at stake.
I trust no other with my blade,
Cause i'm completly numb.

Andrew C.

Like i said, i love the song.

Video for No Coma ^.^
for lyrics, see the post below

.... mhm... ok so i think i should update.... LIFE IS LIFE... thats about all i can think of. happy i got the WHOLE i mother earth discography. work is taking most of my life away so i got nothing really to say. i love you baby, as always, but i think i'll keep saying it.. mwahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahhaHAHAHAHAHAHAHA stupid fucking caps. i'm obviously bored and ranting. should be working on my story, which btw is coming along nicely, want an update just ask.

now to finish this little what-cha-ma-call-it some lyrics from I mother Earth... and if possible... a video? awwwwwwwwwwwww.

A.

"No Coma"

In time I'll find why everyone out there
In the painted sun
Has already found their root...they've found home
And I'm tired of beating every drum
For old friends that never come
Went looking for them once...and found none

I'm so unwound
And I know in my own way
I'm breaking down without screaming out loud
I'm facing up and reaching out
In the end I'll come around so shut your mouth
Cuz I can't stand or yell out...
Tell everyone I'm numb

Here lies the former undisturbed
A bit high and a candle burns
It's goin all south...it's all gone
A red face that hides in nervous hands
Once a better friend than an enemy
Will I make another run...or am I done

Someday I'll line up everyone out there
In a late day sun
For one deep and final breath...


now to see if i can get a video... mwahhahahahahahaha



Edit: Apparently Not!?!

Heart release me...

"End the Pain."

blankly staring as my eyes leak
chin quivering, teeth chattering
i try to speak.
but no words come out,
sour adjectives pile inside my mouth
making thoughts hard to see.
as you stand idly by
always laughing at me
eyes burning deep with vengence,
but i know not what i did.
so heres another apology,
please end the pain.
i'm sorry for all i've done to you.
i'll try not to feel again.
and if forgiveness is what you give,
please rain it on my head.
cause the pain is so harsh you see,
and i'm praying to be dead.

long legs carry me to my dark place,
fear written on my face.
i clawed my way to this great point,
to run away again.
with face hidden deep in a hood,
my tears rain down my face.
another long apology
for all i've ever done.
i wasn't what you wanted.
but cry no tears,
please have some joy.
your freedom is held in hand,
i'm sorry for your bother.

so to borrow words from and idol.
from one of his songs,
filled with sorrow.
"you don't need to bother;
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on,
i won't let go till it bleeds"
so another long apology.
i'm sorry for being me.
thers nothing left to hide,
no feelings left inside.
so again to borrow some more words.
"i'm out this bitch,
theres nothing left for me here."
and i'm gone away.

well it's 820 in the morning on a monday. i have work at 4 and i woke up at 630 or something like that, but it's ok... i don't mind. life seems to be going ok for me. work is bullshit, but then again, thats why it's called work. SEAN GOT A JOB WITH ME, i think that's so awesome. i swill populate joey's with my friends, MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHa. the story, which has upsates on here, which i have to do again, is coming along. although i'm finding it hard to write at the moment. i miss you baby. other then that, i can't really think of anything to post on here... so i'm outs.

wait heres some lyrics for ya:

"nothings left" by the Insane Clown Posse

man... i love you guys
man shut the fuck up man. why you always gotta ruin the moment?
man fuck you.
AIN'T NUTTHING HERE LEFT FOR ME, SO I'M OUT THIS BITCH
FUCK STAYIN' HERE. I'M BUSTING THE FUCK OUT NOW
WE OUT THIS MUTHA FUCKA RIGHT NOW

theres no story that aint been told
theres no gimmick that ain't been sold
theres no ocen that never been swam
thats no jobber that aint been slammed
theres no road that aint been traveled
theres no doctor that aint been baffled
aint no thug that never cried
aint no preacher that never lied
thats no rumor that aint been passed
aint no question no ones asked
theres no tree that won't get chopped
theres no bomb that won't get dropped
aint no pth that no ones laid
aint no bead that aint been afraid
theres no feat that no one can
theres no saga that never began

aint no snow that didn't melt
theres no punch that aint been felt
theres no skill that no ones learned
theres no planet that he ain't turned
theres no view that never dissolved
theres no problem that aint been solved
theres no tale that no ones told
theres no beauty that won't get old
theres no garden the sun ain't beamed on
theres no shoulder that ain't been leaned on
theres no colour that ain't been seen
purple red yellow blue forest green
theres no desert that ain't seen rain
nobody here that ain't felt pain
there no bigot that aint been clowned
theres no treasure that ain't found
ain't no cave they never explored
ain't no mother that ain't been ignored
theres no leader that ain't been lead
theres no blood that ain't been shed
theres no dish they never made
ain't no brick they never laid
everything left's been done before
nothings new, nowhere to explore

on the day when the wagon's come i just pray you let me on {7x}
won't you let me on, won't you let me on, won't you let me on.....

hey jake jeckel fly twist and spin to the other side {9x}
on the day when the waggon's come i just pray that you let me on
won't you let me on, won't you let me on...

(written by shaggy 2 dope and violent j)

chapters 7-11

**7**
**The Third Pool**

The third and final pool of dispair came quicker then we thought it would, steppin out of the second pools chamber and into the third pools. destynie once again went straight to the runes carved in the wall, glowly as faintly as the runes we first saw in the door frame of the entrance to the ruins. Malinik and I went to the pool and looked inside. like the other two the water was once again a different colour. no souls swam in this pool though, as we looked in we saw they were chained to the bottom. millions of chains holding millions of souls in place, never letting them know freedom.

"this pool is for those that were lost and forgotten, loss of freedom chaining them to the floor of the pools, never letting them go" destynie read this, a small quiver in her voice betraying her feelings. she felt for these souls as i did, knowing full well what it was like to lose your freedom. Malinik continued to stare into the pool, a queer smile forming on his lips.

"why are you smiling at thier pain?" i asked him, growing angry as his smile widend on his face.

"you feel for thier pain" he said "i do not, they let thier dispair get the better of them... that is why they are in the pools and we are not. we have a higher purpose"

"how do you figure?" this time it was Destynie asking the question.

"To see, if you will, is to believe... we are here, not in the pools with them" his answer made his smile grow even wider.

"drop the smile..." anger growing to a breakin point inside me "or so help me i'll knock it off your face"

"you were chained weren't you Debraxi" those words coming out of his mouth through me off my guard. " i can see it in your eyes as you look into the pools, you were chained, beaten and no offense meant, to either of you, but my guess would be raped."

"enough!" Destynie yelled, her voice booming in the empty chamber. "we were, alright?, are you happy now?"

"no" he said "but you must not get angry at me, i never meant offense... these souls are like us. but unlike us, these poor souls fell into thier dispair, there is nothing we can do to make it better for them... the gods played thier game and they won. these souls are lost"

with a quick move of my right arm Malinik was down on the ground, holding his chin. "I told you i would knock it off your face" i said, turning and walking out the door..Destynie following quickly, Malinik, after picking himself up, brought up the rear.

**8**
**The Gates To Hell**

Another mile or so into the ruins we saw light, dimly, at the end of the corridor. picking up our pace we found the source of the light, and opening leading to the outside world again. slowly peeking around the openings corner for anything that might be standing waiting we crept outside. breathing the air hurt our lungs, after what seemed like days in the dark and dust. As i took a look at our surroundings i noticed a trail leading to the south, trees growing around it, thier branches making a canopy around the trail.

"looks like thats the only way out of here" i told the others as i headed over to the tree line "to the east looks like a cliff, maybe a river, to the north and west the woods we seem to have by passed by going into those ruins"

"so Hell leads the way for us, eh" Malinik said "so much for the choice..."

"the choice?" Destynie asked him

"Yea, it was told in my village that if you die you get the choice of where you belong, heaven or hell" he said

"what about your past expierences?" destynie asked him again "don't they have anything to do with it?"

"apparently so" Malinik said "but... if we are to choose to serve in this army hell seems to want us for, as Debrazi said, then what happens?"

"I don't know..."

"neither do i" malinik said, a giggle in his voice.

we walked on the trial, through the last portion of the Forgotten Woods. At the end of the trail was a great gate, demons adorned it from side to side. the colour like blood, like the gate was painted in it before being erected. as we approached the gate one of the demons adoring it's sides awoke and raised it's eyes to us. with a wicked smile it opened it's mouth as if to speak.

"Debraxssi.....Desstynie.... and Malinikss, Hell has played your roll, the dice have been cast against the walls of fate. You have vengful hearts. you have vengful deaths. Hell has a place for you...." it said, it's voice slurring and like a snakes hiss. "welcomesss... Home"

At this the gates opened and the fires of hell could be seem in the distance. screams from those that refuse to fight for the demon's king rang out loud and rattled the tree branches. ever so slowly i took the lead and walked through the gate, followed closely by destynie and malinik. as we stepped through our skin began to burn, i looked down at my hands and saw the flesh slowly burn away reavealing a layer of muscle and finally bone. looking back at destynie and malinik i saw that the same was happening to them. we collapsed into a heap of our own bones and the lights went out...

Awoken by a scream off in the distance, i opened my eyes and saw the through the darkness as if it were day. i sat up on the edge of the bed i was lying in, looked around and noticed that there was two other people lying in similar beds across the room. i tried to get up and walk to the door, but quickly fell, my legs not able to carry my weight. suddenly the door opened and in walk a demon, in his hands i could see a try of food. He walked into the room, looked around, saw the other two were still knocked out or sleeping then noticed me sitting up in my bed. he walked over to me and sat the tray down on the table next to where my head would be if i layed back down, pulled a chair out from under a desk a few feet away and sat down.

"good morning, Debraxi of the human alliances." he said "you have travelled a long way, and have brought us two more that we thought were lost to us"

`"wh.. whe... where am i?" i asked "where is Destynie and Malinik?"

"why they are right over there" he said, pointing to the other two bodies in the room.

"are they ok?" i asked him, still dazed and not fully aware.

"of course, hell takes care of thier own" he said with a laugh "now eat, your king awaits to greet you, you must be strong"

saying what he needed and doing as he was order he got up, returned the chair to it's original position and walked out of the room, closing the door behind him.

**9**
**The Dead Born Again, Body Born Anew**

i slowly ate the food the demon brought in, although it looked as if it had come from those that the screams belonged to. As i ate i thought about the walk through the Forgotten lands, the Ruins, finding Destynie and Malinik. all of it seemed a little too destined, like i was supposed to go through this. a movement in the corner of my eye broke my train of thought, i looked over and saw Malinik waking up, his body no longer bones but born again with white skin, adorned by tattooes all over. next to him Destynie was sitting up, how long she had been awake was unknown to me. Her skin too was born again in a dead white colour. the tattooes on her skin more like runes drawn by a patient hand all over her body. her eyes had a slight glow to them, like the runes we found carved into the ruins walls. I motioned them to come over, if they could, so we could talk a little before heading to see the king of the lands of Hell. but before they could manage to even say a word, once again the door swung open. two demons dressed in elegant armor marched in, followed by three others bearing clothing and armor.

"Destynie, you will wear these" the first of the two bearing our new clothing said as he handed Destynie her clothing.

"Malinik, you will wear these" the second said handing the clothing to him.

"Debraxi, You will wear this" the first said to me, he then turned and walked out of the room, returning with a set of armor.

"your places have been set, the king awaits" the second said and retreated out of the room followed by the first demon.

we changed from our death clothes into our new clothing. Destynie adorned in leather, barely covering her body. spikes and runes adorned her clothing, with it came a book.

"whats the book for?" i asked her

"i don't know" she said " if i'm reading these runes right, it's a spell book for Necro'trulic's... whatever those are"

Malinik walked out and looked us over. i looked at his armor, it seemd to be made of human flesh. scars could be seen torn into it, stitches tieing it together. clipped to his side and back were a bow and a quiver filled with arrows, the quiver itself looked as if it were made from the same material as his armor. held in the crook of his arm was his helmet, designed to strike fear into his opponents. the helmet, made from living tissue, remebled the demons that came in the room and gave us our clothing. strapped to his right side was a sword.

"and just what are you supposed to be?" i asked him, looking him up and down, for the first time letting my attraction show

"i don't know" he answered me "but maybe we should find out"

"i think you're right" i said and moved toward the door, but before i could reach the handle and turn it, once again it swung open, almost knocking me flat on my ass. in through the opening came a demon woman dressed in an elegant statin dress. the colour shone bright, blood red, almost blinding us through the darkness.

"you will follow me" she said and turned to leave out the door she has just walked through, we followed...

**10**
**The Demon King**

we walked behind the mysterious demon woman, through crowded corridors and chambers, finally coming to a stop before a great door.

"through this door is the demon king" she told us, turning to face us as she motioned for the doors to be opened "be careful what you say. you're places have been set"
with that said she bowed and walked away.

we walked through the doors and into a the biggest chamber we've seen in the castle so far. far ahead of us and dead in the middle of the room rose a great chair. skeleton bones seemingly crawling all over the chair itself, it's ocupant smiling cruely as we walked closer to it. once we had walked a fair distance our knees began to buckle underneath of our weight, we each in turn fell to one knee and bowed our heads down.

"these walls pay tribute to me" the demon sitting on the throne said "you have been played, tested, desserted and still you come forward, you're places have been set in this army of mine, the army of hell. I am Luferius, king of the seventh gate of hell and your new master. Destynie, come forward" she did as told without hesitation, "you have transformed yourself from huntress, misunderstood by your own people, letting your rage and hatred for this wrong doing feed your vengence, hell has made you a Necro-Trulic, you can raise any dead to fight your battles for you. that book you carry will teach you how, i suggest you read it. it can teach you more then i can, Malinik, step forward" as did Destynie, Malinik too stood and stepped forward, "diseased blood elf, hunted by your own kind, betrayer to your old king, you are now a Rang'tuk, the screams you hear adorn your skin in the form of your human flesh armor. your bow and sword make you quicker. you will be an asset to us here in hell. Debraxi, Step forward." i stood, looked about and stepped up beside my companions "You, of the three of you, you have had the most punishment for your crime against yourself, your family and your king. YOU alone torture yourself for what happen in your past life. in doing this you have Transformed yourself into one of the highest honored soldiers of Hell's High army. You are a Demon High Templar night. as far as i know the only one. you're armor, made from the scales of a hell dragon will protect you, your sword will feed on your victims souls, feeding them in turn into your heart. you will live with your pain for the rest of your life. although you travelled here together, this is where you part. Hell has a design for you, good bye for now"

as he said his good byes light came down, forming circles around us and we fell to the floor again.

**11**
**The Passing Of Years**