watch this:

here we go. again. i'm falling.
taking everything i love down with me.
i'm just another being falling.


watch this:

as i catch up to my dreams in this fall.
here we go. again. i'm sleeping.
taking everything into account.


watch this one:

NO! i won't let go.
and NO! i'll scream if i want to.
so just GO! i'll meet you in hell.

Andrew C.

"when you're gone" by the cranberries.

"When you're gone"

Hold onto love that is what i do now that i've found you.
And from above everything's stinking, they're not around you.

And in the night, I could be helpless
I could be lonely, Sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
There's nothing simple, when i'm not around you.

But i'll miss you when you're gone, that is what i do, hey, baby!
And it's going to carry on, that is what i do. hey, baby...

Hold onto my hands, i feel i'm sinking, sinking without you.
And to my mind, everythings stinking, stinking without you.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
theres nothing simple, when i'm not around you.

but i'll miss you when you're gone, that is what i do. hey, baby!
and it's going to carry on, that is what i do. Hey, baby...



first song i ever heard by them, and now that i have someone that the song reminds me of, i love it that much more.

A.

p.s. i would put the video on to, but i'm apparently not blogged up enough to know how... lol

numb

ok so last post you got the lyrics for my favorite song by I Mother Earth, you also got the video for it thanks to steph. love you baby. well this is the poem that was inspired by the song. NOTE: the poem contains some of the lyrics from the song.

"Numb"

I close my eyes to my everyday
As the sun comes crashing down.
And all I wish I had was...
A home.
But when it's all undone,
Could I have been the one
To trust myself with a knife
As I cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

Here lies the former
Her life is spent
She cried her heart out onto her sleeve
And I took it in my hand,
Gave it a squeeze
As I cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

I close my eyes to my everyday
Just as the moon drifts away
And all I wish I had was...
A friend
But when I lose the days
In moments when i'm gone
To trust another with a knife
I come crashing down.
I'm compleltly numb.

Here lies the changed
Crumpled on the floor in pain
Tears run down his face.
Cause he has been replaced.
And they took him in their hands
Cut away another life.
I'm completly numb.

And i'm so unwound.
I know in my own way i'm breakin' down
Without screaming out loud
I'm facing up... and reaching out
In the end i'll come around
So shut your mouth!
Cause ii can't stand or yell out
I'm completly numb

But as I stand on the future
A chasm in which I can dive.
All I wish I had was...
Understanding
But when it's all but too late.
And other live are now at stake.
I trust no other with my blade,
Cause i'm completly numb.

Andrew C.

Like i said, i love the song.

Video for No Coma ^.^
for lyrics, see the post below

.... mhm... ok so i think i should update.... LIFE IS LIFE... thats about all i can think of. happy i got the WHOLE i mother earth discography. work is taking most of my life away so i got nothing really to say. i love you baby, as always, but i think i'll keep saying it.. mwahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahhaHAHAHAHAHAHAHA stupid fucking caps. i'm obviously bored and ranting. should be working on my story, which btw is coming along nicely, want an update just ask.

now to finish this little what-cha-ma-call-it some lyrics from I mother Earth... and if possible... a video? awwwwwwwwwwwww.

A.

"No Coma"

In time I'll find why everyone out there
In the painted sun
Has already found their root...they've found home
And I'm tired of beating every drum
For old friends that never come
Went looking for them once...and found none

I'm so unwound
And I know in my own way
I'm breaking down without screaming out loud
I'm facing up and reaching out
In the end I'll come around so shut your mouth
Cuz I can't stand or yell out...
Tell everyone I'm numb

Here lies the former undisturbed
A bit high and a candle burns
It's goin all south...it's all gone
A red face that hides in nervous hands
Once a better friend than an enemy
Will I make another run...or am I done

Someday I'll line up everyone out there
In a late day sun
For one deep and final breath...


now to see if i can get a video... mwahhahahahahahaha



Edit: Apparently Not!?!

Heart release me...

"End the Pain."

blankly staring as my eyes leak
chin quivering, teeth chattering
i try to speak.
but no words come out,
sour adjectives pile inside my mouth
making thoughts hard to see.
as you stand idly by
always laughing at me
eyes burning deep with vengence,
but i know not what i did.
so heres another apology,
please end the pain.
i'm sorry for all i've done to you.
i'll try not to feel again.
and if forgiveness is what you give,
please rain it on my head.
cause the pain is so harsh you see,
and i'm praying to be dead.

long legs carry me to my dark place,
fear written on my face.
i clawed my way to this great point,
to run away again.
with face hidden deep in a hood,
my tears rain down my face.
another long apology
for all i've ever done.
i wasn't what you wanted.
but cry no tears,
please have some joy.
your freedom is held in hand,
i'm sorry for your bother.

so to borrow words from and idol.
from one of his songs,
filled with sorrow.
"you don't need to bother;
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on,
i won't let go till it bleeds"
so another long apology.
i'm sorry for being me.
thers nothing left to hide,
no feelings left inside.
so again to borrow some more words.
"i'm out this bitch,
theres nothing left for me here."
and i'm gone away.

well it's 820 in the morning on a monday. i have work at 4 and i woke up at 630 or something like that, but it's ok... i don't mind. life seems to be going ok for me. work is bullshit, but then again, thats why it's called work. SEAN GOT A JOB WITH ME, i think that's so awesome. i swill populate joey's with my friends, MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHa. the story, which has upsates on here, which i have to do again, is coming along. although i'm finding it hard to write at the moment. i miss you baby. other then that, i can't really think of anything to post on here... so i'm outs.

wait heres some lyrics for ya:

"nothings left" by the Insane Clown Posse

man... i love you guys
man shut the fuck up man. why you always gotta ruin the moment?
man fuck you.
AIN'T NUTTHING HERE LEFT FOR ME, SO I'M OUT THIS BITCH
FUCK STAYIN' HERE. I'M BUSTING THE FUCK OUT NOW
WE OUT THIS MUTHA FUCKA RIGHT NOW

theres no story that aint been told
theres no gimmick that ain't been sold
theres no ocen that never been swam
thats no jobber that aint been slammed
theres no road that aint been traveled
theres no doctor that aint been baffled
aint no thug that never cried
aint no preacher that never lied
thats no rumor that aint been passed
aint no question no ones asked
theres no tree that won't get chopped
theres no bomb that won't get dropped
aint no pth that no ones laid
aint no bead that aint been afraid
theres no feat that no one can
theres no saga that never began

aint no snow that didn't melt
theres no punch that aint been felt
theres no skill that no ones learned
theres no planet that he ain't turned
theres no view that never dissolved
theres no problem that aint been solved
theres no tale that no ones told
theres no beauty that won't get old
theres no garden the sun ain't beamed on
theres no shoulder that ain't been leaned on
theres no colour that ain't been seen
purple red yellow blue forest green
theres no desert that ain't seen rain
nobody here that ain't felt pain
there no bigot that aint been clowned
theres no treasure that ain't found
ain't no cave they never explored
ain't no mother that ain't been ignored
theres no leader that ain't been lead
theres no blood that ain't been shed
theres no dish they never made
ain't no brick they never laid
everything left's been done before
nothings new, nowhere to explore

on the day when the wagon's come i just pray you let me on {7x}
won't you let me on, won't you let me on, won't you let me on.....

hey jake jeckel fly twist and spin to the other side {9x}
on the day when the waggon's come i just pray that you let me on
won't you let me on, won't you let me on...

(written by shaggy 2 dope and violent j)