Another Poem...

"Silently Sleeping"

Ikneel down on broken knees
try to fly away with broken wings
these eyes are watery and tired
i can feel my pity leaving me
leaving me wasted
drained from all the pain i see
every face betrays it to me
now it's my turn to tell thier story
my turn to feel thier pain

so to whatever takes me
leave me breathless and shocked
leave me the way i wish to be
silently sleeping

i tried to be alone
tried to weep thier dreams
these eyes and all they've seen
seem to have abandoned me
betraying my heart to thier pain
one more shock and again
i can see thier faces in my sleep
pleading me but i'm too weak

so to whatever takes me
leave me breathless and shocked
leave me the way i wish to be
silently sleeping

forever and again
stuck inside my dreams
where wahtever may take me
i'll forever and again
impossibly, silently sleeping.

Andrew C.

"Smile"

"Smile"

i watched the sun come and go
watched it rise then fall
i watched the flames come over the night
taking away all the pain
i watched as everything that was worried about yesterday
just came and went
it slipped away

now the days seem full of bliss
and i know that it's just my ignorance
playing all those games it likes to play
but this time i make my own way, honey
this time we play our own games

smile...

smile like you did when you told me you loved me

smile...

smile and i will return you to that happy place we once were in

no tears this time round
i'm not going to leave this one buried

i watched as the sun went down
another day done and gone
seems like it's been so long since i had fun
but in the end it's all that matters
i'm going to where i depend
going to where i know i have at least one friend
that friend will be here till the end

so smile...

smile cause i'm not going anywhere

smile...

smile and life will seem less unfair

no tears this time round
i'm not going to leave this one buried

Andrew C.

work... work... woRK... WORK WORK WORK

so as the title of this damed blog must tell you i have found work. no more stressing over not having money or anything like that.... no more worry about where i'm going to be in the next few months... i know exactly where i'll be... MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH i'll be with you baby...


much love and respect everyone

back in Campbell River

well here i am back in Campbell River after a nice long week with my girl. i love you baby. sitting here getting ready to go look for work and watchin over my nephew Anthony... i've had two cups of coffee in the last hour and i'm feeling tired. there has to be something wrong with that cause i remember when i was in highschool the way coffee was the only way from me to wake up in the morning to get ready for school.... now it only makes me tired.

so i'm sure everyone here has seen "The Incredibles" this is like my millionth time seeing it. and it still holds me together like it did the first time. i just love Jason Lee as a bad guy, to think he used to be a wood pusher... i hate wood pushers (for all you wood pushers out there, it's mostly directed to the ones with the high and mighty attitudes so sorry if you hate that comment, but in reality i don't care that much). the way he plays his characters is awesome, he is one of the best natural actors out there today. he's not fake or anything like that.... it's awesome and to think his first movie was jay and silent bob flick.. lol i love kevin smith.

speaking of kevin smith, for all T.M.N.T. they got a new movie coming out for those of you who didn;t know, AND THEY MADE THEM ANEREXIC. it's computer animated and looks stupid so i don't think anyone should really go and see it. BUT i prolly will anyway cause KEVIN SMITH is said to be playing a char in the film.

i think i'm done ranting on random stuff now so i shall leave you all in peaces... lol and with a quote from one of my favorite artists

"MUSIC is BLOOD, BLOOD is OXYGEN, BREATHE IT IN"

your friendly hippie with the jason mask

Andrew C.

this is my sign... BITCH.. lol

VIRGO

your sign of VIRGO is of an earthy nature and is representative of the sixth sign of the zodiac. You belong to a group of people known for their perfectionist and highly analytical minds. in a way, VIRGOs are misunderstood and this attention to detail and striving for excellence has in many circles given you a rather unusual reputaion for being extremely critical. The fact that you aspire to doing things properly, methodically through the work and service that you perform.

As you are ruled by the intellectual planet MERCURY, you bring clear and decisive viewpoints to any matter at hand. others who may not be so precise in the way they execute thier own duty find it hard dealing with you. in your own mind there's no point doing anything half-hearedly. your critical eye, therefore, must express itself if you see anything less than acceptable.

some people think you're shy and unassuming but this is because your caution is simply your way of observing people and situations before jumping to conclusions. you certainly do have keen intelligence and a capacity for learning but perfer to make decisions based on sound judgments and sufficient facts. when you do express your criticisms it is more than likely because you've analysed and summed up a situation quite correctly before doing so. while some people might find this an annoying habit, others will never hesitate to involve you in thier work, social scene or even personal prjects, as your expertise is highly valued. you make a wonderful impression with your skilful insights and broad-based knowledge. in other words you are a most interesting person to associate with.

Your keen eye may sometimes be turned back on yourself and self-criticism could become a very personal challenge fo you. no matter what you do or achieve, it will never seem quite good enough for you. others may praise you and encourage you for the good work and the excellence of your service, but you don't really believe it, do you, VIRGO? this may be expressed as fastidiousness and a constant distraction about cleanliness, hegiene and tidiness, although there are some VIRGOs who swing completely opposite direction and are sloppy and untidy. this is rare, however.

this preoccupation with outer cleanliness, order and method may be compulsion, a distraction from deeper issues and opportunities that life offers. there is a vast difference between compulsive obsession behaviour and generally keeping things tidy. youmust try to discipline your already evolved mind yo understand the difference and relax more.

if you can overcome your tendency to high-strung nervous tension, an overly critical and precision-based interaction with others, you will enjoy your life so much more, VIRGO. allow yourself to imbibe the youthful, childlike and innocent qualities of your ruling planet MERCURY, which is referred to as "a youngster" in hindi mythology. this return to your innate innocence is the true symbolic expression of VIRGO the virgin. that purity and childlike innocence is what your true mature is really all about.

seether lyrics "Driven Under" one of my favorite songs by them

Do you think I’m fakingwhen I’m lying next to you?Do you think that I am blindnothing left for me to lose?Must be something on your mindsomething lost and left behind Do you know I’m faking now?Do you know I’m faking when I’m lying next to you?Do you know that I am blind to everything you ever do? Must be something on your mindsomething lost for me to findDo you know I’m faking?Then she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before on him Then she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before, oh manI guess you know I’m fakingwhen I tell you I love youI guess you know that I am blind to everything you say and do Must be something on my mindthere’s nothing left for me to hideDo you know I’m faking?Then she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before on him Then she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before, oh manWe have to succumb to the feelings we can never faceI need you. I breathe you.I can’t go through this all again. We have to succumb to the feelings we can never face I need you. I breathe you. I can’t go through this…Then she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once beforeThen she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before on himThen she told me she had a gunit sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man Then she told me she had a gunshe says she wants to use it on me now…

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ahhh the smell of, well nanaimo, i'm here for a week yay for me. this week i get to tiptoe around my wifey's room mate and well thats just loads of fun now isn't it
anyway say more later

andrew